i have felt better these past eight days than i have in a long time. i don’t know if it is the gorgeous weather, the fact that i haven’t been face down in the toilet, or that for the first time i have some sort of answer to what has been going on with my body. because, you know, KNOWLEDGE IS POWER! and while i still have no definitive answer, just knowing that this is not all in my head is good enough for me. i’ve been through so much this year and have been beat down and am ready to know something other than my bedroom and the doc-in-a-box. i’m ready to start the family that we have so desperately wanted. i have two options: chew bubblegum or kick ass.

and i’m fresh out of bubblegum.